Thursday, April 16, 2015

An Amazing Man

It's been a few months...

So last night was the regular season finale of basketball.  There is a local group here of Spurs fans in Houston that does meet-ups to watch games together. I found out about them at the beginning of the season when I went to the Spurs/Rockets game and got handed a card. Because life is hectic i hadn't really been able to make it to a meet-up and was desperate to go to this one before playoffs. I told D about it and of course he is always willing to do what i want so we went. My die-hard Rockets fan of a boyfriend sat among a group of Spurs fans and chatted and ate and watched one little TV with his game so i could be happy. Then when it got so warm i was flushed and red he sat there and fanned me for about a half hour so i could be comfortable...

He isn't perfect, neither of us is but I am so overcome with love and adoration for this man it brings me to tears. Like literal tears fall because of the way he cares for me and how he makes me feel. It's new to me and foreign and sometimes scary but God do i feel blessed. Its so different, he shows off my Spurs tattoo more than I do, he wants to be in my photos I post online and he wants to tag every where we go. He makes it known that I am with him wherever he goes and we are a pair there is no him without me. He takes interest in my work and what i do, not just my full-time job but my part-time and my side job as well. He acknowledges my work and effort and congratulates my triumphs and encourages me during my frustrating moments. 

When we fight he is never insulting but it always stems from some sort of jealousy or frustration that i wont allow him to do something for me or help me. He doesn't get mad at the way i fight or the things i say and is always reaching out when things end badly. And wow the patience this man has for me is incredible. I don't even have that much patience with myself. I see myself changing and allowing him to be able to love me. Not changing who i am but changing my protect and guarded ways and allowing him in, its such a feeling.

He is incredibly romantic without ever actually trying to be, he is just open and honest about the way he feels and he says and does things that are just incredible gestures of love and I don't think he even knows it. I find myself at a loss on how to process it and how to reciprocate it but i do what i can and slowly i am learning to do the same and express myself. I'm always scared to sound cheesy or sappy or lame by saying how i feel or what i think but when he does it its so perfect and the feeling is incredible. Especially the way he is also affectionate and has to be touching me or right by my side. 

Overall i just feel incredible, blessed and loved I had to share my feelings because i feel so overwhelmed with emotion. I am feeling something so new and so different (i cant think of a better word!) And i really truly look at him and see my future husband and the father of my children. A man worthy of my love and life.