Friday, June 21, 2013

Haven't Yet Decided

I'm not really sure on the direction this blog is going to take but i'll just roll with it. 

Long couple of weeks, all sorts has been going on. Most of it i don't want to talk about I'm still dealing with it. 

I feel like spending this wknd watching movies, maybe not leaving the house, buying shoes i dont need, finishing craft projects. All sorts of things i want to do but at the same time i want to do nothing at all. Weird huh? 

I feel bad, guilty. I put a lot of eggs in the Spurs basket last night. I needed that win, just to lift my spirits which wasn't fair but I just needed a boost. Then i feel so bad, like i personally victimized them to make it all better because i was down. lol.  God can you tell i love my team I'm feeling guilty for wanting them to win & being sad when they didn't. They had a GREAT season, they played their hearts out and they are still my team. Nothing will change that ever.

Pinterest, man i cannot express how amazing pinterest has been to me these last few weeks/days. Its like so lame i realize but when i get down or I'm allowing myself to pity myself and to wallow i get on there read some quotes or funny shit and it just lifts me up. You have no idea how the right words can help, and the best part is you get both sides its like motivating you in both directions and then you realize which way you want to go...I know that sounds far too deep for a pinterest paragraph but seriously sometimes others cant help and you need to work it out in your own mind.

I have like 3 craft projects going on and i am determined to finish them this wknd before i start anything else! Its crazy, so i am working on crocheting my blanket then i turn around and start working on my photo album (from 2011) to give my hands a break then i stop and i got a puzzle my sister gave me that I'm working on now and I'm just like okay i have 3 different things going on in my house i need to pick one and go from there! lol i think ill work in reverse as the puzzle should be easiest.  But i like having little things to do helps me to be productive with my time. There is really only so much you can watch TV.

I have decided to set a couple of goals for my weekend... I want to grocery shop, see a movie, buy some shoes and finish my projects. I'm seriously going to try to make breakfast on the wknds and cook for the week also. I'm not going all healthy or extreme lifestyle i just want to make better choices with my money because i really am saving my heart out for the cruise & Vegas.  However i'm not sure both of those will be happening, the cruise for sure but Vegas is up in the air along with my broken heart once again.

But i need a vacation and i am so proud of myself for planning it. I deserve it, especially after the loss i suffered this year. But i am excited & so happy for what is to come and I am certainly looking for a long relaxing wknd!

MG